So, three days ago I decided to choose one fault in my tango and one in myself which I need to work on. For tango, I chose the lustrada.
Even though it was one of the first moves we learned, I wasn’t happy with the way I did it. Often when I did it, I felt that I couldn’t turn my partner on her axis without bending her back at least a bit, and I would also bend my posture, my head and shoulder falling downwards in the process. After she did the lustrada, I would sometimes use my arms when leading her over my foot, forgetting to initiate the move from my standing leg and use my entire body.
Since the new “class season“ started, the first classes were dedicated mostly to being present in the dance, so it was the perfect atmosphere and opportunity for me to focus a lot of my attention on the lustrada and what happens with my body when I do it.
I stayed both in the beginners and advanced class, so I was able to practice with various partners. What I quickly noticed is how much my posture actually bends when I rotate my partner in her axis. It was a visible jolt in my dance; by the time I would finish my sidestep and begin rotating my partner, I would already notice my back arching forward and then I would also do the rotation kinda sloppily. It almost wouldn’t matter whether I did it with a beginner or someone more experienced – it was almost entirely my mistake.
Being so focused on my posture, I started noticing all the other moments in my dance where it would become sloppy. I know that in general I have a tendency to fall a bit forward with my head and shoulders, and it’s something I’ve been working on, but this focused practise gave me a much stronger appreciation of how important good posture is and how much more I need to work on it.
It’s still too early to talk about any noticeable improvement. Several times when I managed to do the lustrada with a really good posture, I could sense the pleasure of doing it right, but also the physical and mental strain of keeping your body in a position it is not used to. So, a long way ahead.
As for my personal fault, I decided to work on my sloppiness. I think a lot of us are sloppy to a certain degree –repeatedly putting our keys somewhere and forgetting where they are the next moment and so on. But with me, this extends to also not knowing where my important documents, books and other things are. I just don’t care about stuff, I guess, and it clutters up all around my room at an amazing speed. Of course, every few months or so I would need some important document or such and then I would spend hours looking around the house for it, cursing and promising myself to finally tidy my stuff up. You can guess if that ever happened.
As I was leaving my house, I thought about how to approach this issue and whether it was really that big of a deal. When I closed the door, I realized I didn’t take my keys, and of course when I got back to my room I couldn’t find them. Later that day I again thought that solving sloppiness shouldn’t be that difficult… and when I bought a new mouse for my laptop, I remember the first thought when they gave me its warranty: “Oh god, where the hell am I gonna put this paper?“
As I was putting that stupid warranty in my bag, I accepted the fact that becoming organized is going to take some work, but I cracked an optimistic, if a bit grim smile on my face – at least I was thinking about the topic seriously.
So, I got back home and thought about what to do. Looking for productivity blogs and internet advice sounded like a lame bailout, so I sat down and tried to think why I’m sloppy, how the sloppiness manifests itself and what I can do about it.
Though I did give the subject some thought during the day, I was still amazed that it took a less than 10 minutes to think it through and write it all down on a piece of paper. Some interesting stuff came up, but for now I’ll mention just one of the things I decided to do –I put a small box on a prominent place in my room in which I will hold all the stuff I usually carry with me (keys, wallet, mp3 player, glasses etc.), so that I can easily find it when I need it.
In the next few days I’ll have some good opportunities to work on my posture and sloppiness, so there will be a more detailed report in 3 days. The overall impression, like from tree days ago, is that focus brings great results. It might not even matter what we really choose to focus on, as long as we pick something.